Homestay Kampungku Pasir Mas Kelantan

Salam and hi,


Dear Readers,


Are you looking for homestay in Pasir Mas Kelantan? If yes, we are offering our homestay at rate RM100/night. Details are as per below:-

• 2 bedrooms equipped with queen size bed
• Living room with sofa
• Kitchen with gas stove and cooking utensils
• Washing machine
• Iron + iron board
• 15 minutes to Pasir Mas town
• 30 minutes to Rantau Panjang and Kota Bharu
• Nice paddyfield scenery
• For rent, please whatsapps or sms me at 019-8275812 (Rubiah)

Thank you

Will he loves me for the sake of Allah?

Assalamualaikum w.b.r.t,

Dear Readers,

 

Being in a relationship with opposite gender is first time in my life. It started with a family arrangement about last 2 months, he first came to my house in Kelantan on 3rd May 2015 with his beloved parents. Actually, it started before that somewhere in April 2015, but I refused to let him come to my home.....hihi. However, deep in my heart, I felt guilty for not giving opportunity to him, he has pure intention that he would like to find his soulmate via halal marriage.....Due to my ego, I didn't apologize to him until 2nd May 2015.....I cannot refrain my guilt feeling anymore. I send an apology message to him via whatsapps on 2nd May 2015.....I assumed he won't reply to me anymore, he might be find another person already & I thought my message would be a disturbance to him. Hrmmm.....I don't care whatever his reaction, as long as I apologize. I shocked he replied soon after I sent him that message.....huhu. 

 

I planned to meet him together with my mahram (my brother) somewhere in Kota Bharu (KB) on 3rd May in order to know each other, but due to he already promised with his parents to bring them to KB on that day, he unable to meet me on 3rd May morning, he said on 3rd May evening would be ok......However, I was thinking it will be tiring for him to go to KB for two times on that day since his home is at Tanah Merah which is about 1-2hours from KB. While my home is at Pasir Mas which is in the middle of Tanah Merah and KB. On 4th May, both of us will back to our workplace respectively....thus, time was quite short for us during that time. Finally on 3rd May around 10.00a.m, I decided to let him come to my home in Pasir Mas with his parents, his uncle and his aunt. They arrived around 5.00p.m on that day...:)

 

From May - July 2015, we contacted each other through whatsapps and he only called me once. While, I called him once too due to some urgent family info I need to tell him (his cousin passed away & his relatives called me because he unable to reach his family member....hrmm....weird, but in order to relay the message, I made those one time call to him).

 

During recent raya Aidilfitri (2nd day Raya = 18th July),he came again to my home in Pasir Mas with his parents and siblings. Actually, I still unable to believe he will really come, I thought he was not serious and just kidding.....thus, I am not really prepare.....huhu. We (my family & I) unable to cook best foods for his family on that day, we just use whatever we have at home during that time....fortunately ada byk jgk food supplies during that time due to Raya time. We cooked daging gulai, ayam masak merah & sayur goreng + hati + kaki ayam......air ribena....On that day, I didnt know why I felt so shy....hehe....probably because I gave too much tazkirah to him via whatsapps but in actual I myself didnt really practice my own tazkirah....huhu

 

On 3rd day Raya (19th July), I visited his parents house in Tanah Merah together with Mek, Maa, my brother, my sister and her family. His family were really welcomed us....they cooked very nice lunch for us. Once again, I felt so shy....:). I didnt talk any word to him because I didnt know how to start the conversation. I only talked with his parents and his sisters.

 

I didnt know much about him.....in my heart, I would like to ask & know more about him.....but I dont know how to ask....finally, I just keep silent & probably I will try to ask him after we get married (if Allah willing....). I always wondering, will he truly loves me? will he doing his best for me?

 

How about my love towards him??? I will try to be my best to be his great soulmate and his great friend.....and the most important is to be isteri & menantu solehah as per what Allah instructed to every wife/daughter in-law. As per what my officemate said...all out in giving love di atas jalan yg diredhai Allah....

 

Dong Yi OST....one of my favourite korean series due to historical value & strong determination, loves and friendship showed by a woman.

 

 

Wassalam

 

Why Ummu Mus'ab?

Assalamualaikum w.b.r.t

I am changing my blog nickname to Ummu Mus'ab. Why?? It is because my dream to name my first son as Mus'ab....hihi, perasan....padahal kahwin pun belum lg. But, it is not wrong right? In life, we must have good ambition.

Okla, that's all...I am really sleepy enough.

My mother went to cataract operation (backdated post)

Salam and very good day,

Backdated post

On last Tuesday (26th Aug 2014), my mother went to cataract eye operation at UIA Kuantan eye specialist clinic. Dr that operates my mother was Dr Khairidzan. Alhamdulillah, operation went well, mak saya kata tk sakit pun & dia tk perasaan pun bilakah mata dia kna operate. Maksudnya, operation ini amat selesa dan tidak menakutkan.

A day after that, we went back to UIA for after operation check-up. During that time, my mother body really really weak.....she cannot walked well, i need to hold her hand & shoulder to support her while she was walking. It  turned out to be an upset for me when nurse open the eye's cover and asked her to read a few alphabets and she cannot read. However, I said to my mother it is ok walaupun Mek masih belum nampak huruf2 tu, kita dah buat yang terbaik, kita cuma berusaha, mungkin Allah tk bg lagi.

Dr Khairidzan said sometimes Diabetes patient thas undergone the Operation will take longer time to heal. Eyes for Diabetes patient after the Operation will become better & better. I was still positive at that time, mungkin seminggu dua lagi mata Mek kata improve. Then......ianya betul, lebih kurang seminggu mata Mek nampak, siap boleh baca Quran yg tulisan kecil2...:), tp kena pakai spek Rabun dekat yg dibeli dekat Mydin (RM10/pc), if tk silap power dia dlm 275. Spek Rabun dekat tu pakai time ngaji je, time biasa tk boleh pakai sbb dia utk tgk huruf2 & utk membaca shj.

Sepanjang 3 bulan lepas operate tu kena pantang ye, saya bagi Mek mkn ikan kering gelama bakar, daging bakar, ikan selar....hihi, tu je. Rajin la saya time tu menyediakan makanan untuk Mek sbb tk boleh beli, kena masak utk orang pantang. I can't believe I can do it. Yg saya peliknya sup tulang boleh pulak ye....sbb ada la skali dua dalam tempoh pantang tu, kitaorg dropped by kt kedai makan.

Today 18th April 2015 (8 months after), mata Mek still OK & nampak dengan eloknya. I am looking for her 2nd Operation sbb sebelum ni operate mata sblh kanan shj, skrg nk operate sebelah kiri plak.

Okla, that's all. I am going out for breakfast.

One quality behaviour I learnt today

Salam and good day to all,


One quality behavior I learnt today which is 'calm and cool'. I learnt it from one of the boss. Under a pressure, he managed to handle it with calm,cool & firm....while myself....ya ampun, stressnya..:). Showing you are stress does not help & does not contribute to anything. With calm, cool and firm, we could think better and probably solve a problem.


Both of my bosses for SFC project have these criteria : Calm, cool and firm. I am thank to Allah for opportunity to learn from them.

Static Frequency Converter at FPSOBUK

Salam and very good day,

Dear Readers,

After a long pause, I came back to the blogging with one of my project title for this year...:). Actually, I have many others task than this project. However, this project looks like always in the spotlight of management...probably due to its high capital cost. Spending day by days of my working hours for this project makes me neglected another task as Electrical Maintenance Engineer for beloved ABU, Penara & North Lukut platforms. Sometimes, I am quite sad because I am spending too much time for Bunga Kertas, not for my own location at either ABU or Penara or North Lukut. After thinking in totality, whatever it is, it still company investment money that I have ownership to take care.

At the beginning of handling this project, I acted like a passenger or co-pilot, follow the flow. But one day, my FOM, En KZ came to my workstation, having a small chit chat on the project. He said I need to be more proactive in driving this project. His remarks made me realized that I need to do something.....but I still did not do too much, still dependent to other people to drive it. The good thing about it probably, I took proactive action by raising RTS and went to Bunga Kertas for collecting data for Power System & Protection Relay Coordination study. These two studies should be done at the beginning of the project.....not now. Currently, project is in hook-up stage. But what we can do, these two studies have been overlooked by previous team. Thus, we have did reverse engineering part...:). Alhamdulillah, those studies have been completed in last August 2014.

Due to some organization restructure, our asset need to bid farewell to our Asset Head and FOM...it was quite sad occasion for us..:(. I only worked for previous Asset Head & FOM for less than 1 year, but I learnt a lot from both of them.

At the same time, we welcomed our new asset head. New Asset Head is having quite same character with my previous FOM (simple & straight forward person). Probably, because both of them being a boss at very young age. In one occasion, he asked me to attend a meeting in KL during the time I did not want to attend (because it just 2 hours meeting & I need to use evening flight KLIA-Kuantan to go back to Kertih if I attend that meeting...hihi. I was thinking our partner in KL could be our reps). He did not force me to go....but he explained the importance for our company to have reps in that meeting. Realizing on the importance fact after more than 15 minutes discussion with him & my senior, I agreed to attend that meeting because understood the urgency & we did not want to be the stumble block that delay the project.

I always has the attitude of thinking my job less importance than other, probably because I have the mindset whatever production related is important, non-production related is no. 2 priority. However, I think my boss thinks all tasks under his asset are equally important especially if it is about SFC project. One day, I contacted him through whatsapps that I would like to meet him once he has free time for some SFC project discussion. He immediately replied that he was in a meeting, did my issue importance? I replied that my issue is less importance..:). He replied back, let us discuss now & he would like to drop by at my colleague (another project team member) for this discussion. Very positive attitude showed by him. I seldom met boss like him (btw, my previous boss in Miri also like him...:)). Makes me shift paradigm that we have option to do something as per what we want....we are not the follower of flow. Dare to be different than other if the different creates values (Berani untuk jadi berbeza dari orang lain jika sikap itu creates values)

Another thing I learnt in these few days was just highlight the important key things to team members...:). Do not overload their mind with so much info. Before this, I was the person that would like to cc all items to all team members...hihi. This thing probably only applicable to this project because the project come to the end, many team members have been changed & sometimes issue that I brought out is not really relevant to all. As example, I would like to send materials to KSB, I have cc that emailed to all....hrmm...probably better to cc to key personnel only. If rajin, boleh la update status shj to all once everything done smoothly. I don't need to update all problems that have been faced to all, but it good for me to solve it upfront with relevant parties & once solved....update the success to all. 

Ok....that all for tonight. Pray for our success ya...we plan to commission by this 16th Dec.

Electrical safety....mencabar jgk tajuk ni

Salam,
 Walaupun mencabar, sy dh closed acd topic ni. Now, my boss asked me to present on this topic to the rest of my colleagues.....huarghhh.

I would like to present as per Ain presentation way which is divide into 3 situation such as design, maintenance & troubleshooting....hrmmm how to divide safety on that 3 subtopics. Probably, i can the story by design an electrical switchgear kt offshore.......what are the competecy of manpower needed, PETI guidelines, PTW.

Saya lantik diri saya sendiri jadi tok ketua (project engineer)

Salam,
This is the most funny task i have handled so far. No nomination and direction from bosses, no official handover & project history briefed. The key personnel keep silent and do not have feeling that they should drive the project. I am dragged into this complicated project. It is complicated not due to technical engineering difficulty but due to the behaviour of key personnel in the team. Ego, ignorant, difficult to reach.....that what i feel. No wonder after so many years, it still doesnt completed.

I should not be the tok ketua (project engineer). It should be from the other side to be project engineer who drive the project. However, I cannot have patient on too slow project progress that lead to long payback time to the company. Thus, i have tokk action to be more proactive although i am not entitled to do it.

Problem at work

I just wondering on what is the impact if people doesnt perform his/her role. Hrmm....i just think that situation is weird since we are in a team, everyone in the team should support each other. Or elsewhere I am over proactive....:) Sometimes, i feel i would like to keep silent & let those things past over. However, I can let it like that....

Behaviour owh behaviour. It is within yourself whether u would like to care on other teammates.....or just be an ignorant person.

It is the first time I am facing this weird situation,people does not interested to response and do not excited to complete their task...i am really against this attitude..hmm...however, everyone has their own strategy, probably people who doesnt response is the one that has different stream as compared to myself. Thus, i think i just be patient....try to complete those tasks with my way of managing thing...learnt along the way. m

Tap changer plak yg pening

As per title, tap changer plak yg sy masih pening....if kita turunkn tap, voltage makin turun or makin naik???.....errr...tk tahu nk jawab. If awk jd design engineer,mcm mn awk nk decide transformer kt plant awk guna on load atau off load tap changer??? Awk tk blh sesuka hati nk design tau....

Hehe...two points to ponder. Soklan ni tkde la payah sgt if kita phm electrical concept.

Baru fhm konsep circuit breaker

salam....

As per title,acd tahun ni sy baru fhm concept circuit breaker iaitu moving contact and fixed contact diletakn dlm satu medium spt air, oil, vacuum. Medium ni akn memastikn arc yg terhasil dari overcurrent or short circuit will be distinguished. cara nk distinguished arc tu depends kpd medium. If air, akn ada arc chute utk suppress the arc from high energy to low energy. If vacuum, dia akn halang arc tu dari muncul....haha. if oil, arc akn menyebabkn oil tu panas....jd ada mekanisme yg akn tukar oil tu jd oil lain yg sejuk. Btw, sy dh terrer kira short circuit rating guna MVA method tpassesor tk tnye plak

Apapun masalah kita, kita perlu bangkit!

Assalamualaikum and very good day,




Saya ingin mengambil sepotong ayat Quran sebagai sandaran terhadap setiap ujian yang melanda diri kita.




Apakah manusia mengira bahawa mereka akan dibiarkan mengatakan: Kami telah beriman, sedang mereka belum diuji?"

(QS Al-Ankabut:2-3)

Ujian & tingkat keimanan berkait rapat. Selagi kita tidak diuji, kita tidak akan tahu setakat mana tahap kemampuan kita untuk menghadapi ujian itu.

Ujian mungkin boleh menjadikan diri kita bercelaru, murung & banyak berfikir. Begitulah saya, disaat saya diuji dengan pelbagai ujian seperti masalah dengan rumah yang baru dibeli, masalah dengan pemaju, masalah di tempat kerja dsb. Jadual rutin seharian terganggu, banyak tugas2 seharian diabaikan seperti lupa memberi ibu saya makan ubat ikut jadual, sering terlewat sampai di pejabat, rumah bersepah2 sebab tiada mood nk kemas rumah. Setelah segalanya berlaku....saya istighfar panjang atas kekhilafan saya yang tidak mampu menghadapi ujian baru2 ni dengan baik. Berfikir dan bermuhasabah.....akhirnya saya cuba menghadapi kekurangan rumah yang baru dibeli dengan sabar sambil berusaha mendapatkan hak saya melalui surat aduan kpd pemaju....mungkin kalau tidak berkesan saya akan adukan kpd tribunal perumahan. Saya juga cuba mengemas dan menyusun atur apa yang boleh saya susun di rumah ini supaya ianya kelihatan kemas & barang2 murah diambil. Saya merancang untuk membaikinya sedikit demi sedikit jika pemaju tknk baiki seperti atap, longkang, bathroom & dapur.

It is more to do in life.....masa untuk bangkit!Setiap kali kita rasa hopeless, jangan lupa Allah sentiasa ada bersama kita.



I learnt a lot from Dr Jang Geum

Assalamualaikum and very good day,

 

Dr Jang Geum...1st royal physician
lady in Korean history

Jewel in the palace....something that I am impressed with Jang Geum character yg bersungguh-sungguh menolong orang lain. Teringat satu eposide semasa dia menjadi physician, sanggup pergi berhutang dengan General Min Jung Ho sbb nk beli ubat untuk her patient. Gajinya sendiri bukan byk pun, kalo dia berhutang....kena potong gajinya selama beberapa bulan atau until setahun atau lebih, baru boleh bayar hutang Min Jung Ho. Masih adakah sikap yg begitu ikhlas membantu orang lain pada zaman sekarang.

 

Semasa dia menyelamatkan kanak2 dari penyakit campak yang berjangkit, dia menjaga kanak2 itu seperti seorang ibu yang menjaga anaknya padahal itu anak orang bukan anak dia pun....I can see loves in her character.

 

Jang Geum also never showed her loves towards General Min Jung Ho until a few last episode towards the end of the series although Min Jung Ho was a very good guy, she treated Min Jung Ho from wounded and Min Jung Ho also helped her a lots. Very different character, very professional makes me thinking that Jang Geum very focuses with her aim and her study to be royal cook and later to be a physician. She worked hard....jujur and very independent.

 

Reflecting to myself, I should adopt a little bit her character iaitu jangan terlalu pentingkan diri sendiri, tolong orang bersungguh-sungguh, work hard-pastikan memberi hasil kerja yg terbaik dalam apa jua perkara yg dilakukan. Appreciate others more seperti mana Jang Geum bila dia terhutang budi dgn General Min Jung Ho yang helped her a lot, she cooked special dishes with her heart (maksudnya memasak dgn bersungguh2, rasa kasih sayang dan ikhlas). Jadi saya pun bila saya ingin memberi hadiah untuk orang, saya akan do it with full of loves in my heart (hadiah tk semestinya mahal tp dengan penuh kasih sayang dan keikhlasan).

 

Next 2014, saya ingin lebih jujur kepada kerjaya saya....byk challenge hasil kerja kontraktor supaya tidak sewenang2 nya memberi hasil kerja yg tidak berkualiti kpd company P dan rakyat Malaysia. Selalu datang awal dan cukup 8 jam (yang ni boleh start esk terus). Pastikan dpt 50% base dan 50% key ruler untuk ACD Assessment 2014. Create better environment for my home....thus my mother will not feel lonely.

 

 

19/11/2013

Assalamualaikum and very good day...

ACD arini I did it very bad. Sgt sedih kerana saya telah membazir duit company kerana tidak perform dgn baik untuk tugasan ini. Is any chance for me anymore untuk membaiki kesilapan? Rasa sgt susah kerana sudah lama kerja tapi banyak perkara basic yang tk tahu. Tak tahu nk buat apa skrg. Berfikir sendiri apakah aku tidak layak menjadi seorang engineer? Rasa nk berhenti kerja buat ke berapa kalinya berfikir seperti ini. If berhenti tak tahu nk kerja apa dan macam mn nk byr hutang kereta + rumah. Rumah mungkin boleh sewakan...ada ke org nk sewa ye? RM1500/month di Kemasek, Kerteh.

Di saat kesedihan dan kekecewaan adalah perlu untuk mengingat Allah. Jaga hubungan dgn Allah, solat di awal waktu, zikir, doa.

25/11/2013

On 20/11, I met my boss and I told him I would like to change my skill group from technical to non technical....meaning from being an engineer to non-engineering profession. My boss looked quite reluctant on my decision....I cannot guess why?? May be he thought I was emotional, gave up and didn't make good decision. Rather than agreed with my decision, he said we will think how to make you pass your ACD. I will ask Technical Principles (TP) to teach you....ok to be continued.

Meeting at KLCC today

Salam Dear Readers...

 

I have meeting with Joint Venture today, an operator from USA, company name  Newfield. They have office at Tower 2, KLCC. Thus, I have visited their office today. I need to improve on my communication skill....I found out myself today was not breaking the ice....I was quite reserved and more to listen what others said. This was due to no issue related to my discipline.....however, I shouldn't have that attitude...I must break the ice and must try to create conversation although it is not relate to job.

 

Nothing related to my electrical discipline....we are from different company.....different country....hrmm, what topic to converse haa??

 

In future I have must be more prepared on what topic to converse and how to react in case there is nothing related to my discipline. I am there is as an ambassador of my company and more important is an ambassador of Islam...so how come an ambassador do not speak??

Hotel Mandarin Oriental KLCC > I am feeling guilty stay here because of it expensive cost. Hope kesenangan dunia tidak melalaikanku dari mengingat akhirat. Moga ada yg baik kupelajari dari meeting dan jalan2 ku di KLCC arini untuk ummah, Islam dan D&T

It is October already..:)

Salam and Good Day,

 

It is October already...:). Time was moving so fast....I am already 6 months working in Kerteh and living in Dungun. 6 months going back & forth from Dungun to Kerteh every day for working. Last year in October...I probably in headache situation in order to handle project at Baram offshore Miri. Alhamdulillah, that project completed in January 2013 after so many obstacles I need to face...:). Arguing with contractors, learnt how to convey message and convinced other peoples with our ideas, time management, learnt to be firm, learnt to manage a project in order to meet objectives and completed with stipulated time and cost....huhu. Living in Baram Delta is so challenging....I am imagined myself was in Amazon Rainforest Brazil...hehe.

 

In October last year - January 2013, myself was fighting with bad weather and sea turbulence in Baram Delta water.....Alhamdulillah, with the ownership and spirit I want to complete the tasks given to me on whatever means (fullsetop), I didn't have time to think about give up at all...my mind only focused on I want to complete it soon. In those duration, I prayed Solat Hajat and Dhuha a lot....:). I still remember myself everyday got seasick, headache, stomache because of high swell in Baram Delta area....many times fast crew boat U-turn to shore after a few hours journey to Baram platform due to bad weather. In the journey from Pulau Melayu to offshore....I normally will try to sleep in order to avoid myself got seasick. I still remember how tired am I when I needed to climb up and down high staircase in the platform....hahaha...so sadis but taught me a lot about life and toughness.

 

Alhamdulillah...those hardest parts in my life has gone. I am now working in Kerteh which is in different types of challenges. In Kerteh, I don't need to face with 2-3 hours travelling everyday with fast crew boat anymore because we use helicopter, not much swing rope for boat transfer because most of the platforms use 'transfer basket', no urgency for me to go to offshore because we have CSR.

 

Miri taught me a lots. When I am in Kerteh now, my tasks are done in more efficient ways, my communication skills are more improved, I myself well defined with what I suppose to do because I have learnt a lots from Miri...:). As compared previously in Miri, I was do not know how to react when a task was given to me....thank you Miri and sorry because I didn't contribute much when I was with you.

 

My life is happier and peaceful in Kerteh or Dungun....I do not know why? It is abstract...:). May be due to I know what I suppose to do when I am in office. Hrmm....btw, the food supplies are also better in Dungun as compared to Miri, the wet market here is more 'meriah'....a lot of choices of beef, chicken, seafood, vegetables, kuih-muih....

 

October comes again into my life....towards to the year end. There are a lot of more efforts I need to do for my office works. Most of the tasks are not completed yet. There are a few constraints to move forward such as budget constraint and on how to ensure the contractors are tip-top contractors. From what I observed, many contractors did not plan properly, complaisant, do not see the urgency of the job. Thus, I need to correct back their mindset in order to put them in the correct picture and motivation. It is not only for the sake of getting my job done, but it is also because of caring about their accomplishment in life and caring for the Malaysian nation. It is important for the nation to have highly motivated workforce rather than having careless/complaisant workforce.

 

Interacting with Terengganu's people really makes me happy, their character and their concern quite near to Kelantanese. When I was in meeting with KLCC peoples, their concern and character are quite different. What can I said about this... is myself from Kerteh operation is like village people, the person who cannot speak English fluently and cannot stand with busy city like KL but we bravely highlight our concern and what we want when needed. Thus, both village peoples and metropolitan city peoples added value to the company. Do not know how to speak English does not mean you need to be shy in meeting or shy to highlight your concern. It is also does not mean you cannot understand presentation and discussion in English....just be claim and listen properly...asking question if you need clarification although your English is broken.

It is October 2013 already....my ambition changed a little bit. Before this, I did not really want to be subject expert matters in Electrical Engineering, however once I see my colleagues from Gas Processing Plant already passed with her assessment and very thoughtful in Electrical knowledge, having proper logbook and really take ownership with her assessment....I think I want to be like her...:). My target is to learnt as much as I can while I am an engineer in industry, then I would like to further my study in Master, PHD and be a lecturer (I don't mind if during that time I am getting old already....I think I want to do that when I pass assessment for manager level...Thus, it is about 5-7 years to go to take Master. I do not want to rush too much because I would like to enjoy the journey and collect the knowledge peacefully, like plucking berries or apples during spring or plucking durian/mangosteen during fruit season). It is good for a lecturer to have experience working in industry. Thus, I can advise my students about real working life...:)

 

 

Ramadhan Day 29 : Solok lada refreshes my childhood memory

Assalamualaikum and very good day,

 

Solok Lada....photo by http://dapurmalaysia.com/resepi-solok-lada/

 

 

This post is about yesterday. One of the dishes that I always keen to cook is Solok Lada (Chili filled with mixture of fish's meat, coconut, onion, garlic). It is not due to its delicious taste, but it is due to my big sister. One day when I was back home, my sister said today she would like to cook Solok Lada....that's time I think I still at primary school. Our home during that time just have basic furniture and using wooden stove....no gas stove because my parents unable to effort it during that time. Although without so much household facilities, I really amazed with my big sister with her willingness to cook. She never complain neither sad with that condition.....lives must go on and on......kekurangan bukan halangan to live a happy life.

 

When my big sister said she want to cook Solok Lada, I was really excited because I never cook that before. Actually, we lived in different home. She lived with my biological parents and I was adopted by my uncle/auntie. I lived in comfortable life at my uncle/auntie home...they are wealthy people in our village. So that day, I helped my big sister cooked Solok Lada, I separated fish's meats from its bone (mengasingkan isi ikan dari tulangnya) and when the solok mixture finished, we have been put that mixture together inside chili (Lada). The last parts that I like most is when my big sister said....now we have access mixture, jom kita kepal bulat2 dan buat meatball..:). After that, we cooked those chilies + fishmeatball with santan kelapa. Then we ate that solok lada/fishmeatball with rice for that day lunch....what a simple lunch but yum....yum....delicious.

 

Note :

 

1. The chillies were from my ayah (father) farm. He expert in growing chilli

After that, I did not have so much opportunity to cook with my big sister anymore. She went to MRSM after form 3 and I went to boarding school after standard 6. You see....kekurangan/kemiskinan bukan penghalang untuk berjaya dalam pelajaran....My big sister did it. She has been graduated with degree in accountancy....Now, she live in happy life with her husband and two sons....will be added one more child in near future.

 

Yesterday, my big sister was not at home. She celebrated Eid at her husband village....Kedah. As per I said earlier...I always keen to cook Solok Lada, however the opportunity never come because I did not know how to cook it.....sometimes, it is difficult to get suitable chili. The chili that suitable for Solok Lada is big chili in pale green color.

 

Alhamdulillah, in day 29 of Ramadhan this year, the opportunity came. My Maa (mother) willing to cook it with me. Thus, I went to wet market and bought all the necessary ingredients. During preparing the solok mixture and cooking, my mind was refreshing past memory...:the sad and happy parts come slide by slide. How hardlife of our family has been transform to better life now....Alhamdulillah, we never know the plan of Allah. How our small home has been transformed to a comfortable home now......

 

The lesson learnt I get here is:-

 

1. When we are in difficult situation...please do not give up but do our best. Admit our kekurangan and be grateful on what we have and strive for better life. If you give up, you will not improve and in fact you will be 'rugi' for not to live to the fullest
2. When we are in comfortable situation....please do not be arrogant to other peoples and furthermore to Allah. Help other peoples, reflection (muhasabah) and grateful to Allah
3. Don't judge people by it cover...:). Tak semestinya org yg dibesarkan dalam keadaan yg serba cukup itu lebih baik/lebih competent/lebih knowledgeable dari org yg dibesarkan dalam keadaan serba kekurangan. Ini penting sebab in future jika Allah izinkan saya akan menjadi seorg isteri/ibu. Sebagai ibu, kita biasanya nak kelengkapan yg terbaik untuk anak2 sehinggakan berlebihan memanjakan mereka.
4. Cooking is life skill & family bonding

Ramadhan for 2013/1434H has been ended yesterday. In term of ibadah, I gained less than last year....in term of self reflection, sabar (patient), be a better daughter I think I gained more than last year.

She

She thinking of resigning...however she cant because of other people. She need to be there to solve the problem, to become change agent & to motivate other people. She like people and she like to see the happy face of other people. Thus, how come to leave them? She cannot leave them although she need to sacrifice a lot...her interest, her preferences as a woman, her quality time with family.

She who always unable to attend social gathering at office due to she prefer to be at home with her mum.

She who always tried to persuade her mum to allow her to go out for tarbiyyah & dakwah (D&T)activities. She who always figure out idea....how to let her mum allow her go out..:)

She who now really want to learn on technical thing because she need to stand by her own feet when the technical problem comes.

Makan hati berulam jantung

Alkisahnya terjadi semasa morning meeting, seorang lelaki meninggikan suara kepada rakan sekerja perempuan. Terkejutlah rakan sekerja perempuan tersebut sbb benda itu tidak pernah berlaku di tempat kerja lamanya…..namun dia cuba mengawal keadaan dgn berkata “Ok2…”.

Hatinya bergegar bila mendengar amarah itu…..sepanjang meeting terfikir2 tentang perkara itu. Cuba berfikiran positif yang rakan sekerja lelaki itu bertegas supaya kerja jalan. Namun hatinya tetap pecah berkeping-keping seperti gelas yang dihempas ke lantai. Berfikir sepanjang hari bagaimana utk bertemu muka dgn rakan sekerja itu di masa hadapan….sungguh dia tidak bersedia. Bukan dia tidak menyukai rakan sekerja itu cuma dia segan kerana peristiwa itu.

She think that guy is a good guy and helpful....but quite garang. Mungkin that guy pun menyesal because unintentionally burst his angriness to a woman this morning. Tapi a guy susah nk minta maaf. She know she is not good in managing that job...but she hope that guy will ask for forgiveness for raising voice towards her.

Setiap orang berbeza…..nmpaknya perempuan itu sgt sensitive……pemendam.

The weekends is coming, hopefully she can cool down and happy throughout the weekends and become neutral again.

 

Whatever is it, she will pretend that thing not happen and communicate as good friend as per before.

Catatan hari ke-14 Ramadhan 2013

Salam and Good Day,

Saya baru resume balik puasa setelah diberi cuti oleh Allah selama 8 hari iaitu dari 15/7-22/7. Dari jumlah itu, sepanjang 5 hari saya berada di ABU platform, Kerteh. Bayangkan hari pertama period di offshore, mmg penat.....hampir2 nk give up utk pergi ke interrig platform, tp since it was very important activity that I need to learn, saya pergi jugak cuma saya rasa saya nmpk mengada2 sket bila saya bgtau technicians..."Saya penat hari ni, saya nk rehat dulu, you all proceed dulu la". Maka tidolah saya dalam satu bilik kecil di dalam control room utk hilangkan kesakitan period pain dan gain energy. Technicians saya pulak mcm understanding yg saya penat sbb kebetulan during that time bad weather & high swell dekat ABU area....hehe. Heran jgk jika kat darat, mesti saya akan ambil cuti bila hari 1st period,kat laut rehat 1 jam ++, lepas tu boleh bangun tgk sitchgear servicing dari jam 9 pg- 1tgahari. Mungkin sbb makan GLA + Ostematrix Shaklee sejak a few weeks ago....jd kesakitan itu tak seteruk sebelum2 ni.

 

Cuma bila dekat2 nk sampai tgahari tu, saya dh rasa tk larat...huhu. Tapi cover2 lah sket sbb kebetulan ada masalah lain plak iaitu aktiviti one of my friend need electrical advice on cable specs. Masa kt offshore tu, amal ibadat amatlah kurang sbb period dan mungkin mood time tu lain sket.....bila duduk sorg2 mesti muhasabah, "Apa aku buat ni? This is Ramadhan, baca mathurat pun tk istiqamah, jgnkan nk sharing dgn org pasal hadis, terjemahan and etc". Hrmm....cabaran utk adapt dgn suasana.

 

On 19/7, balik Kelantan sampai 21/7, mood masih sama, mathurat tk baca pun..:(. Dakwah lagi la tk buat...huhu. Sampai naik risau....akhowat ke ni?

 

22/7, masih period tp teman Mek pergi solat sunat terawih. Saya duduk belakang baca Riyadhus Salihin. Mula2 semangat, lepas tu mengantuk la jgk....hehe. Duduk dgn bermacam gaya supaya tk mengantuk, kaki lurus ke depan la, bersimpuh la.....tp akhirnya terpksa la pejam2 mata sekejap, mungkin penat kat office atau sbb ada kemalasan dlm diri.

 

23/7 iaitu hari ni, saya bangun sahur jam 5 pagi, Mek saya bangun awal lagi 4.30 pg which is saya tk mampu nk bangun seawal itu sbb the night before saya tido dlm jam 12mlm. Mlm ni, masa org solat sunat after Isyak, sementara nk tunggu terawih saya tido sekejap...hehe. Makcik2 kanan kiri semua solat ba'diyah Isyak. Mek saya suruh saya tido kt blkg kalo saya tk larat and skip solat terawih. Dlm hati saya...."Owh no, saya kena kuatkn semangat jgk untuk solat terawih walaupun ngantuk atau lenguh badan mcm2 mana pun". Alhamdulillah, by finishing 8 rakaats terawih and 3 rakaats witir saya rasa diri saya lebih bernilai, seperti lulus ujian ketenteraan, seperti lebih tenang.

 

Lesson learnt:-

 

1. Our iman is up & down
2. If we really cannot do ibadah sunat, take a rest. Quality of ibadah sunat is better than quantity
3. Do not easily give up, if penat sket tu tahanlah
4. Jangan lepaskan peluang utk beribadat kerana kita tidak selalunya sihat & lapang& berpeluang. Jgn menyesal bila kita dh tua/sakit/busy nnti.